Archive | October 19, 2015

You have been warned

In 2005 my brother insisted I join LiveJournal and start blogging and following his cancer blog and to connect with his Bear friends and so I did. It was one of the greatest gifts he ever gave me. I could follow his journey until he was too sick right at the end to write and after he died I had made friends that loved him as much as I had.

And so I write, I have now blogged about grieving my brother, my mother and Laura and my kitty last year, it doesn’t get any easier. We grieve because we love. If we hadn’t loved we wouldn’t hurt.

And if you’ve never lost anyone yet, give it time, you will and hopefully you will have people whose love was held in common with the person you loved.

If you don’t want to read my postings on it, that’s fine. You aren’t required to be party to naked grief and it will be especially for the next two weeks.

The hauntings have already started. We went to bed with all the lights in the house off and I woke up at 1 in the morning almost exactly and the overhead lights we seldom use because they are too bright were on and shining up the stairs so either I’m sleep walking again and turned them on and came back upstairs and went back to bed or someone non-corporeal turned them on and that switch does not move easily.

Yesterday was a year exactly from putting Faileas to sleep. She walked into Alison’s room and got on the footstool and leaned against her just like she used to and poor Coirbidh was as far down the hall as she could get and still see Alison.

I’m wondering who else is going to visit. It’s 10 years since my brother died and 14 since my dad and it could be any one. They seem to be active this year, some years no one shows up.


The one lovely blog award

one lovely blog

I have received the One Lovely Blog Award from the wonderful Sepultura13. Her blog is here: Thank You! This came on a really rough day.


1. Put the award logo on your blog.

2. Give 7 facts about yourself.

3. Thank the person who nominated you, linking to their blogs.

4. Nominate any number of bloggers you like, linking to their blogs.

So, 7 random facts, hmmmmm.

  1. The only time I really like the colour orange is during fall.
  2. We’ve had two ghosts already this week come visiting. I love Samhain
  3. I love airports, I don’t like flying
  4. I love glass fusing and making and someday should I ever retire I want to go back to it
  5. I have extra bones and ligaments scattered all over my body
  6. Samhain is my favourite Holiday but the most difficult
  7. I hate umbrellas, it can be just pouring and I will not use one if I can help it.

I nominate:

Truly Teach me Tarot:

Bible belt witchy mama

Feisty Amazon:

Grey Cat Sidhe who is anything but Ditzy:

Loki’s Little Hippie Witch –

Ozark Pagan Mamma –

These are all blogs I follow, I literally follow hundreds but many have stopped writing regularly. :=(

Hope you enjoy them as much as I do.

Grief is the price of love and I will pay it

Sometimes I have to remember that I wouldn’t grieve if I didn’t love

Grief is the price of loving

Sometimes the price seems awfully high

And at the time when grief hurts the most

The price can be beyond what I want to pay

The price of being alive and awake to love

It’s the price we pay for being here

It’s the price for being able to wish on stars

It’s the price for seeing your love reflected in another’s eyes

It’s a price paid in hugs and smiles

It’s a price paid in tears and priceless words

It’s a price paid in the pain of losing and the pain of loss

I thank the Goddess for gifts of friendship

I thank the Goddess reflected in the faces of those I love

I thank the Goddess for grieving even in the midst of pain

Because it means I love.

Kat 2014