Archive | October 3, 2013

T is for the Tarot

T is for Tarot or at least my views on it.

Tarot isn’t necessarily pagan. A lot of non-pagans use the tarot. They allegedly use it for fortune telling but the Tarot is not a fortune telling device and if someone tells you that they are mistaken in how it works. The Tarot gives a picture of a single point in time. The minute the person reading or being read for makes a decision the reading can change.

It changes because human beings have free will. Minor arcana are easily shifted due to a person’s actions and choices. Major Arcana can be difficult if at all. They tend to be stones in a stream you can go around. That being said they are movable to a certain extent due to that pesky free will.

What the Tarot really is is a photograph or map of your brain and the landscape around you. I have literally read for people who make a choice during a reading and changed the outcome which is why I sometimes do an additional three cards for the final outcome if I can feel that something has just changed.

The Tarot does not “tell” fortunes. It can give you a glance in the final cards of some choice based on your current direction of travel but it is not absolute because not only do you have free will but so do all the people around you. No one lives in a vacuum and their choices also affect your choices and outcomes.

I don’t like to read for strangers and I hate being put on the spot to read. I flat out won’t do it. I’ve had too many funky things happen and though the Death card rarely means actual death, I have had it come up in someone who had a deadly disease and was keeping it a secret. If you are forced to read that in a public space it puts you, the reader, in an untenable position. OBTW, The Death card can mean loss of job, end of a relationship, end of anything you hold dear or something in life you need to let go of. It almost never means death, no matter what some cheesy television show says. I’m more scared when the Tower comes up than Death.

I do the one card reading every day to see what hints my current choices can lead to. I don’t do major readings very often and I’m more likely to use the Ogham or the Faery Oracle for a big reading because I prefer conversation to deciphering archetypes.

Choice of the deck is important because something like the Thoth deck will read a lot differently than the Wildwood or Greenwood deck. My first tarot teacher used to say that if you got a funky reading from the Thoth deck AKA Crowley’s deck you needed to spank it and then scold it to make it behave. Decks tend to contain a lot of their maker in them. I suspect the decks that work for me are designed by people I would get along with well. Having said that I do use the Thoth deck occasionally and do get some interesting readings but then I have a warped sense of humour and I know how to treat mischievous little boys who are being bad.

So if some offers “to tell your fortune” Run Away, Run Away! Because they are lying if they say they can. They may be able to give you some insight into the choices before you that are yours to make but no one can tell your future.

I’ve been a bit quiet because I’m working on this

I’ve been working on the slide show for Laura’s memorial and I think it’s the hardest one I’ve ever done. I have so many pictures to choose from it’s very hard so I decided I had to have some rules. I have to have this done by Saturday and it has to be as perfect as I can make it.

No large group shots. I don’t want people looking for themselves and not at Laura. Although I may break that rule once or twice.

Laura must be doing something that is engaging even if it’s her usual ‘look through your soul’ look she got and I caught on camera.

I need some from every stage of her life if I can and all the groups of people.

There should be funny ones because Laura had a great sense of fun and humour.

I want it to be about 10 minutes. I think any longer and I’ll destroy everybody.
I’m trying to find as many of her ordination pictures. I know I don’t have everyone’s but I have a lot.
There must be surprises.

The music should celebrate her life not destroy people in sadness because she’s not there.

Laura lived life on her own terms and I want to reflect her joy, her love, her knowledge, her wisdom and leadership.

The first song is one I love by John McCutcheon who is one of my favourite song writers and singers. If you have kids, check out his kid’s albums. They are wonderful and I think if I still was working at kids camps every other song would be his. I think Laura would have liked it. I chose “We Are Not Alone”. He wrote it to thank the Hospice that took care of a family member and it’s incredibly joyful and because she got to die on her terms in her own house surrounded by her goddesses and priestesses in Hospice. And since I can’t sing how I feel without puddling up, I’ll let him sing it.

This is me, this is mine
In my life, in my time
Every heart, every soul
We’re each part of the whole
Every birth, every breath
Every life, every death
I am here, I am home
I am not alone

Every step of this journey will be mine
Take a stand
Take my hand
Take your time
From the moment of my birth
Through every day here on this earth
I will live this life for all that I am worth


And in the end there’s precious little that we own
Great or small
Time is all
Just on loan
So let us live life to the brim
And if we sink or if we swim
Let us leave a bit of grace where we have been


Each door we close
Leads to an open door
Love is what this living all is for

I’m also using a Lisa Theil song because Laura had Lisa sing at Faire many times. So I’m using “I Am The Goddess.” I’m using one by a TOILA priestess who used Laura’s poetry but I still need one more song. I haven’t decided what yet.

I am the Goddess, Mother of Life,
I am the Goddess, bearer of Life


I am, I am, the Goddess Divine
I am, I am the Goddess Divine
Isis, Venus, Ishtar, Kali,
Minerva, Shakti, Kwan Yin, Lakshmi,
I am, I am the Goddess Divine,
I am, I am the Goddess Divine
I am the Goddess, ever living,
I am the Goddess, ever loving


I am the Goddess, creatress of life,
I am the Goddess, who nourishes life

I’m thinking maybe, “Lullabye” Cris Williamson but that may not work but it’s a song we were passing around for comfort in the temple while she was dying.


Cris Williamson

Shaina Noll

Like a ship in the harbor,

like a mother and child,

like a light in the darkness,

I’ll hold you awhile."

"We’ll rock on the water.

I’ll cradle you deep

and hold you while angels

sing you to sleep."

This is a labour of love and I’m putting all my love, heart and soul into it.

This is my gift to Laura and the Temple. I raise a glass to you Laura. We will always miss you. Now I just have to finish. I have literally thousands of pictures to choose from.