Fred Small – Smile when you’re ready
Little girl in Mary Janes
You walked a fine line
Party braids and pinafores
Thank you for the very nice time
They didn’t ask what you were thinking
They didn’t want to know
All you wanted was to be loved
So you put on a show
But you can smile when you’re ready
Not a moment before
A refugee awakes at night
To the sound of distant wars
Smile when you’re ready
No matter how long it takes
Your wounded heart will find
Its own saving grace
Toy guns and bloody noses
Don’t walk away from a fight
“Faggot” jeers at the sign of tears
Screw the lid on tight
So you never let ’em see you
You never laugh too loud
You’re the man in the iron mask
You’re a big boy now
Rain on the river
Patches of blue
Just when a smile seems a million miles away
It’ll sneak up on you
Sometimes the people who hurt you
Don’t leave you alone
Maybe they ask forgiveness
Maybe they say please come home
Maybe they’re just too ashamed to admit
The things you say are true
You can love ’em you can let ’em go
You know it’s up to you
I figured out some of what was bothering me about this job interview and there were several things.
1. There were no men working there other than the guy who interviewed me.
2. The staff was only Latina and Asian women. No African- Americans or Causcasians at all and nobody but the Director was obviously gay. Nobody who stereotypically would rock the boat.
3. They have those awful cubicles that look like playpens, which means you have no privacy and you are always watchable. It’s a terrible environment to do programming in where you sometimes need privacy to think. Only paranoids and extroverts pick these cubicles.
4. That awful short story “Message to Garcia” which basically says never question authority and work until you drop dead. It’s written by an anarchist and socialist of the early 1900’s. Not to mention if you look at Elbert Hubbard’s other quotes he was a misogynistic old cretin.
5. The guy wanted me right then and never asked if I had any questions
6. The Director had to sign in on a time clock. I only saw this because he was late.
So my take on this is the management doesn’t trust you to do your job. They don’t like people to question or think. They hire people who they don’t think will make trouble. When you don’t trust your management to sign in on time you have a problem. The fact that he immediately offered a ridiculously high salary, what I used to make but haven’t heard in 4 years.
Match that with the rune I pulled yesterday – Hagalaz – Hailstones or crisis, destructive forces
And the Tarot card, the 9 of swords – your worst nightmare.
Maybe this isn’t the place for me.
The temp company just called to tell me they used to have a man there but he quit???