Sunday was a lovely quiet RAINY day. Something rare and beautiful after the long hot summer here. It smelled so wonderfully clean. For once the neighborhood was quiet because Yom Kippur had started so it was a nice day to process ritual and let my back decide it was still part of my body after abusing it in the car Saturday.
Still thinking about whether the Deep Time Ritual did anything for me. I don’t really think so. It didn’t touch my heart which made me rather sad. I don’t really need a ritual to remind me to live in the present and that every ending is a beginning and every beginning is an end. For the last year of living in a grieving state it’s the only place I can live. Minute by minute. hour by hour, day by day, I suppose it’s why I sometimes forget to do things. And I haven’t updated my Daytimer since last December. I have the pages I just haven’t ever put them in the book. I’m lucky if I know and remember what I’m doing next weekend.
The goddesses invoked aren’t the ones that butt in my life on a regular basis. Maybe if Hekate had been the future or deep time goddess. Nepthys doesn’t call me in that way. Bast should have been present not Isis, LOL, nothing is more about the present than a cat.
I was also missing Joanne not being the ritual. She can bring me into ritual as not very many people can. But I send her healing love.
Maybe it was because it was a public ritual. Their dynamics can be so strange and we had so many guests it makes it hard for me to be open. Lady Olvia and an Arch Priest from Japan were our guests and all the people who came to meet Lady Olivia that don’t normally come to our rituals change the energy. Plus some people who have hurt me so badly before came which kind of blows the “perfect love and perfect trust” thing.
I did enjoy the party afterward though even if it took me to the end of my strength for the moment. Lots of nice chatting and sharing.
I was most amused at the people paying homage to BunniHoTep. I brought her and sat her in a chair of her own for ritual. Lady Olivia came over and had a nice chat with her. As did most of the BunniHoTep Priestesses but that was expected. Tickled me no end.
I was going to go to the brunch at the Queen Mary but I can’t do that kind of thing 2 days in a row any more.
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