Archive | July 24, 2006

For Sonja

My sister has a close friend that used to live out here but got transferred to New York and believe it or not she has had a worse year than Ali and I.

Her mother died of Kidney problems a few months ago and her father was diagnosed with prostate cancer not too long ago.

She went in for a work physical and was found to have fibroids but when they went in to take them out they found not only fibroids on her ovaries but a tumor on her pancreas and one somewhere else. She just got home after a week in ICU. And today they told her that the tumor on her pancreas was cancer.

Ali and I know that pancreatic cancer has no cure. it kills quickly but I’m glad Ali didn’t tell her that. So maybe just maybe, there are miracles.

She needs some positive energy badly so if you are so moved, her name is Sonja and she is a lovely person who is having a very rough year.

For Sonja

My sister has a close friend that used to live out here but got transferred to New York and believe it or not she has had a worse year than Ali and I.

Her mother died of Kidney problems a few months ago and her father was diagnosed with prostate cancer not too long ago.

She went in for a work physical and was found to have fibroids but when they went in to take them out they found not only fibroids on her ovaries but a tumor on her pancreas and one somewhere else. She just got home after a week in ICU. And today they told her that the tumor on her pancreas was cancer.

Ali and I know that pancreatic cancer has no cure. it kills quickly but I’m glad Ali didn’t tell her that. So maybe just maybe, there are miracles.

She needs some positive energy badly so if you are so moved, her name is Sonja and she is a lovely person who is having a very rough year.

I’m having a passive- aggessive moment and because my mother is a major passive-aggresive it makes me un-comfortable. I don’t want next Sunday to come. I have a visual of trying to keep a door shut with all my might. Lying on the ground holding it open with my legs against the door as it exonerably moves shut no matter how much strength I use. One year, It can’t be one year. I won’t let it. It’s wrong! He can’t be gone that long! He just can’t! I still want to tell him things and hug him and laugh with him. And … I can’t.

I’m having a passive- aggessive moment and because my mother is a major passive-aggresive it makes me un-comfortable. I don’t want next Sunday to come. I have a visual of trying to keep a door shut with all my might. Lying on the ground holding it open with my legs against the door as it exonerably moves shut no matter how much strength I use. One year, It can’t be one year. I won’t let it. It’s wrong! He can’t be gone that long! He just can’t! I still want to tell him things and hug him and laugh with him. And … I can’t.

11th Flamekeeper shift

Cill Elder Shift 3 http://www.ordbrighideach.org/index.htm

GENEALOGY OF BRIGIT
The genealogy of the holy maiden Brigit,
Radiant arrow of flame, noble foster-mother of gods,
Brigit the daughter of the Dagda,
Dagda the Good God, the son of Ethlinn,
Ethlinn the daughter of Balor,
Balor the king of the Fomoire.
Every day and every night
That I say the genealogy of Brigit,
I shall not be killed, I shall not be injured,
I shall not be enchanted, I shall not be cursed,
Neither shall my power leave me.
No earth, no sod, no turf shall cover me,
No fire, no sun, no moon shall burn me,
No water, no lake, no sea shall drown me,
No air, no wind, no vapour shall sicken me,
No glamour out of Faery shall o’ertake me,
And I under the protection of the holy maiden,
My gentle foster-mother, my beloved Brigit.

Sloinneadh na Ban-naomh Bride,
Lasair dhealrach oir, muime chorr Chriosda.
Bride nighinn Dughaill duinn,
Mhic Aoidh, mhic Airt, mhic Cuinn,
Mhic Crearair, mhic Cis, mhic Carmaig, mhic Carruinn.
Gach la agus gach oidhche
Ni mi sloinntireachd air Bride,
Cha mharbhar mi, cha spuillear mi,
Cha charcar mi, cha chiurar mi,
Cha mhu dh’ fhagas Criosd an dearmad mi.
Cha loisg teine, grian, no gealach mi,
Cha bhath luin, li, no sala mi,
Cha reub saighid sithich, no sibhich mi,
Is mi fo chomaraig mo Naomh Muire
Is i mo chaomh mhuime Bride.

11th Flamekeeper shift

Cill Elder Shift 3 http://www.ordbrighideach.org/index.htm

GENEALOGY OF BRIGIT
The genealogy of the holy maiden Brigit,
Radiant arrow of flame, noble foster-mother of gods,
Brigit the daughter of the Dagda,
Dagda the Good God, the son of Ethlinn,
Ethlinn the daughter of Balor,
Balor the king of the Fomoire.
Every day and every night
That I say the genealogy of Brigit,
I shall not be killed, I shall not be injured,
I shall not be enchanted, I shall not be cursed,
Neither shall my power leave me.
No earth, no sod, no turf shall cover me,
No fire, no sun, no moon shall burn me,
No water, no lake, no sea shall drown me,
No air, no wind, no vapour shall sicken me,
No glamour out of Faery shall o’ertake me,
And I under the protection of the holy maiden,
My gentle foster-mother, my beloved Brigit.

Sloinneadh na Ban-naomh Bride,
Lasair dhealrach oir, muime chorr Chriosda.
Bride nighinn Dughaill duinn,
Mhic Aoidh, mhic Airt, mhic Cuinn,
Mhic Crearair, mhic Cis, mhic Carmaig, mhic Carruinn.
Gach la agus gach oidhche
Ni mi sloinntireachd air Bride,
Cha mharbhar mi, cha spuillear mi,
Cha charcar mi, cha chiurar mi,
Cha mhu dh’ fhagas Criosd an dearmad mi.
Cha loisg teine, grian, no gealach mi,
Cha bhath luin, li, no sala mi,
Cha reub saighid sithich, no sibhich mi,
Is mi fo chomaraig mo Naomh Muire
Is i mo chaomh mhuime Bride.

Woodland Hills where I work posted a record temp for L.A. County this weekend 119 and it’s hot again today. Evidently at some point this weekend there was also a power outage. If it wouldn’t be disgusting I almost wish it would happen again because they would have to send us home.

Oh my Goddess! I wore a dress to work because I couldn’t abide the idea of putting on jeans. The world will now end or at least the teasing won’t. Maybe I should have worn a kilt. Then I could lie and say it’s not a skirt because it isn’t. Bike shorts tho, never regimental.

Oops, and my tats show which will scandalize a number of people who go by my looks and not the personality I display.