Alison and I decided to take next Monday off rather than sit at work on day after Cam’s death anniversary and burst into tears at inappropriate moments.

Now we have to decide what we are going to do. Ali wants to go to Disneyland because we used to do that as a family a lot. Part of me wants to and part doesn’t ’cause the damn firework show with Tinkerfell about destroyed me at Christmas. All that stuff about your wishes coming true when I know the wish I want most can’t come true.

Before she decided that I was thinking about going to a garden but most are closed on Mondays like Huntington or SRF. I know I don’t want to stay home and I want to do something he would have enjoyed doing with us.