Archive | July 2006

August Holidays

+————– Bizarre Holidays in August —————-+

August 2 is National Ice Cream Sandwich Day

August 5 is National Mustard Day

August 6 is Wiggle Your Toes Day

August 8 is Sneak Some Zucchini Onto Your Neighbor’s Porch

August 12 is Middle Child’s Day

August 13 is Blame Someone Else Day

August 18 is Bad Poetry Day

August 22 is Be An Angel Day

August 25 is Kiss-And-Make-Up Day

August 29 is More Herbs, Less Salt Day

For the rest of the list, please go to

I miss him so much, It’s been a year and a day.


Me and Cammy 

For Good from Wicked

I’ve heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don’t know if I believe that’s true
But I know I’m who I am today
Because I knew you

Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I’ve been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good

It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You’ll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend…

Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I’ve been changed for the better?
But because I knew you

Because I knew you

I have been changed for good

And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For the thing I’ve done you blame me for

But then, I guess we know
There’s blame to share

And none of it seems to matter anymore

Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood

Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a bird in the wood

Who can say if I’ve been
Changed for the better?
I do believe I have been
Changed for the better

And because I knew you…

Because I knew you…

Because I knew you…
I have been changed for good.

Yesterday was the first day it was below 100 degrees after 21 days above. It’s really sad when you think it’s cool because it’s only 97 degrees. That’s just wrong.

Right now I just wish it would get cool enough to sleep with a sheet, If I could even find the top sheet that is.

Last night the cat decided to get cozy with her elegant but very warm furry tail. How I did not boot her off the bed I do not know. As hot as I have been at night I’m glad I have no human bed partner. I’d have booted them out of bed days ago. Especially since I have a knack for attracting the kind of bed partners that are heat seeking missiles. And who don’t understand that I am not that kind of sleeper. Nothing like having to defend yourself from a dead sleep by a person who takes that sort of rejection personally. And who you are too sleepy to figure out what the heck her problem is, you’re sleeping for goddess-sake. Cuddling is for when it’s cold not when you are hot, sweaty and sticky from the weather.

Musing on my other lovely sibling

Most of the time I have no idea how I influenced by sister growing up. She’s almost 10 years younger than me and when I was younger that seemed an enormous and sometimes painful gap. A 6 year old sharing a room with a 16 year old is not an easy thing a good share of the time. Now the gap seems like nothing until last night.

I had given her a cd of yesterday’s play list which is mostly 50’s music and one other that had 60’s music like the Beach Boys and others.

She drives twice a week all around L.A. for her job so I thought she could listen in the car.

She came home and surprised me. She didn’t like the 50’s cd but she wanted more stuff from the 60’s and in particular a lot of the folk music I have. When I asked why that, her reply. “It’s what you were playing all the time and I like it.” Her whole childhood in our room was spent listening to me learn to play the guitar and eventually becoming fairly good at it.

What did she want? Peter, Paul and Mary, Simon and Garfunkel, The Kingston Trio, the Limeliters, and John Denver and anything else I wanted. And she wanted all the versions of the same songs as in both JD’s and P,P&M’s version of “Leaving on a Jet Plane’. In other words, all the things I was playing at home and learning to play for the kids at camp. It never occured to me that she was listening all those years ago. And at the time I probably wouldn’t have cared. I thought she was a brat in my space.

She also wanted old Broadway musicals like Brigadoon and anything Rogers and Hammerstein, or Annie Get Your Gun. That was no surprise since our parents dragged us to shows from birth. I think I was 5 or so when Mom and Dad took Cam and I to Brigadoon and started a lifelong love affair with showtunes.

If I had known I would have dragged her to concerts like when I went to see P,P & M alone because none of my friends would go with me to the Greek Theatre and sat in the very last row and had one of the most fun concert experiences of my life. I did take her to see S & G a few years ago when they had there reunion tour.

This is gonna be fun.

Today’s Playlist

Cruiser Tunes

1. Let Your Love Flow / Bellamy Brothers
2. Daydream Believer / Monkees
3. That’ll Be The Day / Buddy Holly
4. Da Doo Ron Ron / Crystals
5. Runaway / Del Shannon
6. American Pie / Don McLean
7. Catch the Wind / Donovan
8. Rescue Me / Fontella Bass
9. Cat’s in the Cradle / Harry Chapin
10. There’s a Kind of Hush / Herman’s Hermits
11. It’s My Party / Leslie Gore
12. When Will I Be Loved / Linda Ronstadt
13. Don’t Sleep in the Subway Darling / Petula Clark
14. Monday, Monday / The Mamas and the Papas
15. Wishin’ and Hopin’ / Merseybeats
16. Pack Up Your Sorrows / Mimi & Richard Farina
17. Breaking Up Is Hard To Do / Neil Sedaka
18. Put Your Head On My Shoulder / Paul Anka
19. Arizona / Paul Revere & the Raiders
20. Ooh Child / The 5 Stairsteps
21. Downtown / Petula Clark
22. Mrs. Brown You’ve Got a Lovely Daughter / Herman’s Hermits
23. The Last Thing On My Mind / Judy Collins

I try to live my life with the the philosophy of “no regrets” but with the loss of Cammy. (he will always be Cammy to me)

I wish I had taken more photos
Not avoided his camera every chance I got
Absorbed his scent
Stolen more kisses
and grabbed more hugs
could hear his voice.

I had already told him every time we talked how much I loved him so I don’t have to live with the thought that he didn’t know that.

I got tagged by cim_halfling

I was tagged by cim_halfling and this seems like a fun meme:

1. Grab the nearest book.
2. Open the book to page 123.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the text of the next 3 sentences on your blog along with these instructions.
5. Don’t you dare dig for that “cool” or “intellectual” book in your closet! I know you were thinking about it! Just pick up whatever is closest.
6. Tag three people.

“The one she needed and rightfully should have had power over. That Gate. That damned Gate the boy had opened.

Isabella closed her eyes against the shiver of power dancing along her skin with sparklike touches.

“The Gate of Bones” by Emily Drake.

Hmmm I tag. Bansagart, clamproir_mary, and mt_yvr. And anybody else who wants to play.