When are you allowed to let your heart break? Before or after someone you love dies? Between Cam and mom, my heart doesn’t know where to go. And Cam is too far away from me to help Scott with anything and I just wish mom would hurry up. Some priestess I am. Having been on-call clergy for the AIDS Service Center in the 90’s was some preparation but knowledge doesn’t really help the heart cope no matter how many times you read Elisabeth Kubler-Ross. And the nature of sorrow is selfish.